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Wednesday, November 29, 2006
梁山伯与茱丽叶
曹格: 我的心唱首歌给你听 歌词是如此的甜蜜 Hmm
曹格: 可是我害羞我没有勇气 对你说一句我爱你
卓文萱: 为什么你还是不言不语 难道你不懂我的心
卓文萱: 不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意
曹格: 千言万语里 只有一句话能 表白我的心
卓文萱: 千言万语里 只有一句话就
合唱：能够让我们相偎相依
曹格: 我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 卓文萱: 茱丽叶
曹格: 我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
卓文萱: 把爱 曹格: 永远
卓文萱: 不放开 曹格: I Love You
卓文萱: 我爱你 你是我的罗密欧 曹格: 罗密欧
卓文萱: 我愿意变成你的祝英台
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜 美丽的爱情祝福著 未来
卓文萱: 为什么你还是不言不语 曹格: 不言不语
卓文萱: 难道是你不懂我的心
卓文萱: 不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意
曹格: 千言万语里 只有一句话能 表白我的心
卓文萱: 千言万语里 只有一句话就
合唱：能够让我们相偎相依
曹格: 我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 卓文萱: 茱丽叶
曹格: 我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
卓文萱: 把爱 曹格: 永远
卓文萱: 不放开 曹格: I Love You
卓文萱: 我爱你 你是我的罗密欧 曹格: 罗密欧
卓文萱: 我愿意变成你的祝英台
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜 美丽的爱情祝福著 未来
曹格: 我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 卓文萱: 茱丽叶
曹格: 我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
卓文萱: 把爱 曹格: 永远
卓文萱: 不放开 曹格: I Love You
卓文萱: 我爱你 你是我的罗密欧 曹格: 罗密欧
卓文萱: 我愿意变成你的祝英台
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜 美丽的爱情祝福著 未来
曹格: 我的心唱首歌给你听 歌词是如此的甜蜜 Hmm
曹格: 可是我害羞我没有勇气 对你说一句我爱你
卓文萱: 为什么你还是不言不语 难道你不懂我的心
卓文萱: 不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意
曹格: 千言万语里 只有一句话能 表白我的心
卓文萱: 千言万语里 只有一句话就
合唱：能够让我们相偎相依
曹格: 我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 卓文萱: 茱丽叶
曹格: 我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
卓文萱: 把爱 曹格: 永远
卓文萱: 不放开 曹格: I Love You
卓文萱: 我爱你 你是我的罗密欧 曹格: 罗密欧
卓文萱: 我愿意变成你的祝英台
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜 美丽的爱情祝福著 未来
卓文萱: 为什么你还是不言不语 曹格: 不言不语
卓文萱: 难道是你不懂我的心
卓文萱: 不管你用什么方式表明 我会对你说我愿意
曹格: 千言万语里 只有一句话能 表白我的心
卓文萱: 千言万语里 只有一句话就
合唱：能够让我们相偎相依
曹格: 我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 卓文萱: 茱丽叶
曹格: 我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
卓文萱: 把爱 曹格: 永远
卓文萱: 不放开 曹格: I Love You
卓文萱: 我爱你 你是我的罗密欧 曹格: 罗密欧
卓文萱: 我愿意变成你的祝英台
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜 美丽的爱情祝福著 未来
曹格: 我爱你 你是我的茱丽叶 卓文萱: 茱丽叶
曹格: 我愿意变成你的粱山伯
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜
卓文萱: 把爱 曹格: 永远
卓文萱: 不放开 曹格: I Love You
卓文萱: 我爱你 你是我的罗密欧 曹格: 罗密欧
卓文萱: 我愿意变成你的祝英台
合唱：幸福的每一天 浪漫的每一夜 美丽的爱情祝福著 未来
Monday, November 27, 2006
i've been thinking alot these few days. i've let someone down 1 year plus ago. the one who was willing to brave all the rough seas for me (/with me) and who was there for me no matter what. im still sorry for everything. i really regret on that decision i made back then.
i can still remember him accompanying me study for my 'A' levels in burger king, reading newspapers while i was mugging. how many guys can do that? i remember him waiting patiently for about an hour plus for me get off work. i couldn't leave earlier cos it was during the festive season. he didn't complain at all. how many guys can do that? i remember all the love and effort he put into the whole relationship, being almost always there for me when i needed someone. how many guys can do that?
and till today, he's still here for me as a good friend, no matter what. thanks jiayang.
i just needed to get these feelings off my chest. =p okayyy, back to studying~
i can still remember him accompanying me study for my 'A' levels in burger king, reading newspapers while i was mugging. how many guys can do that? i remember him waiting patiently for about an hour plus for me get off work. i couldn't leave earlier cos it was during the festive season. he didn't complain at all. how many guys can do that? i remember all the love and effort he put into the whole relationship, being almost always there for me when i needed someone. how many guys can do that?
and till today, he's still here for me as a good friend, no matter what. thanks jiayang.
i just needed to get these feelings off my chest. =p okayyy, back to studying~
Saturday, November 25, 2006
i just read this somewhere:
'I'm in love but you don't care. Maybe he does care. But not enough. Maybe he does find you wonderful and fun and nice. But not enough. And perhaps, he does like you. But not enough. It's not enough for him to let down his guard, to take a step closer. And knowing with all that was said, that nothing is enough, you should find in that enough reason to slowly let go. That you do deserve someone better. With love along with all its stupidity and beauty, there comes a point where you realize you don't want to listen to sad love songs, or watch drippy movies, or read schmaltzy stories, you want the real thing not a mere reflection of it. So there, it's time to stop. Stop not because you're hurting, not because you're sad, not because you're scared. BUT because YOU LOVE. More.
I'm in love but you don't care.'
'I'm in love but you don't care. Maybe he does care. But not enough. Maybe he does find you wonderful and fun and nice. But not enough. And perhaps, he does like you. But not enough. It's not enough for him to let down his guard, to take a step closer. And knowing with all that was said, that nothing is enough, you should find in that enough reason to slowly let go. That you do deserve someone better. With love along with all its stupidity and beauty, there comes a point where you realize you don't want to listen to sad love songs, or watch drippy movies, or read schmaltzy stories, you want the real thing not a mere reflection of it. So there, it's time to stop. Stop not because you're hurting, not because you're sad, not because you're scared. BUT because YOU LOVE. More.
I'm in love but you don't care.'
i think it's quite true. it kinda reflected a lot on what i felt and decided on a while back. anyway, had my el2101 paper today. well, i finished the paper and i could do some of the questions but the rest was im-not-sure-what-to-say. but i tried my best. really. and so im gonna start mugging for el2151 and the rest of my modules real hard. tataz~
Friday, November 24, 2006
i was down with a slight flu today from yesterday's studying at central library. guess the library's air con was too cold. *sigh* but well, jiayang just bought fish porridge from vivocity and brought it over to pgp for me before going back to sheares, cos he knew that i wasn't feeling well. gosh, im really really touched to tears.
the fish porridge~ :p
i dunno why im crying also. i guess im just superbly vulnerable whenever im sick. *sigh* where are you when i need you so much?? *sigh x 2*
to jiayang: thanks alot! other than thank you, its still thank you. im at a total loss for words.
Monday, November 20, 2006
i call it the '3 treasures fried rice'. cos got ham, egg and prawns (my fav!). =p
i cooked fried rice today! heh. i decided to be a good girl and whip up a nice dinner for my mommy cos its her burfdae tomorrow. that's part 1 only. =p anyway, my mommy said its superbly nice and i feel really satisfied though the whole cooking process took me about 1 hour plus.
okayyy, time to get back to study. tataz~
Sunday, November 19, 2006
on the way home, i felt more lethargic than before. i practically had to drag my body all the way home. i had another lousy day at work and i was experiencing a splitting headache for the whole day. and darling didn't bother to call me up after work today. hmph.
im feeling very tired of everything. im starting to think that it's a very lousy honeymoon period for both of us, with him going to hk soon and starting work when my exams are ending and me having exams soon and struggling at work so as to feed myself. *sigh* all wrong timings.
im feeling very tired of everything. im starting to think that it's a very lousy honeymoon period for both of us, with him going to hk soon and starting work when my exams are ending and me having exams soon and struggling at work so as to feed myself. *sigh* all wrong timings.
Friday, November 17, 2006
i must mug hard. i will do my best. if i don't understand, i'll ask till i understand.
okayyy, i've had enough of fun. i should really get down to serious business, meaning mugging for exams. and that implies less blogging.
had a test for el3203 today. *phew* it was the only test of the 3 tests in this week which i feel good after taking. not mentioning that i concussed last night while preparing for it. heh. my gek1502 was okay but my el2101 was disastrous. now i gotta start preparing for the real thing.
gonna meet huizzz and jas at central library to mug. so tataz~ =p
okayyy, i've had enough of fun. i should really get down to serious business, meaning mugging for exams. and that implies less blogging.
had a test for el3203 today. *phew* it was the only test of the 3 tests in this week which i feel good after taking. not mentioning that i concussed last night while preparing for it. heh. my gek1502 was okay but my el2101 was disastrous. now i gotta start preparing for the real thing.
gonna meet huizzz and jas at central library to mug. so tataz~ =p
Thursday, November 16, 2006
finally, the long awaited picture of me and desmond. heh. *drum rolls*
yay!! 1 week old~
i wonder why im smiling so sweetly. *ponders* hee. but well, happy 1 week old darling.
Monday, November 13, 2006
yesterday was a really lousy 1st day at work, ever in my life. *sigh* i've always had good comments about me wherever i work, i.e. being enthusiastic, bright smile, friendly and confident, having the initiative blah blah. i got scolded/ nagged at, whichever sounds nicer, for 5-6 times at work yesterday. i don't wanna talk about it already. although the extra 6 bucks for my hard work paid off at the end of the day, i'm still pretty dejected.
although i had a verywrong day, darling managed to make my day perfect. he borrowed his dad's car and fetched me up after work. *smiles*
honestly, im afraid of falling too deep into this relationship. i keep telling myself constantly not to be too bothered about everything and what he does. i'm just trying to prevent myself from being too involved in a relationship. perhaps it's my way of protecting myself from any more emotional damage, so that i can wave the white flag effortlessly any time and walk away from the whole relationship should it turn ugly. but it's wrong isn't it? we should always love like we've never been hurt before. *sigh x 2* i'll try.
des: i know that ur past relships have really dented ur faith in this one.. I know im not perfect.. but i wont want to hurt u neither do i want this rlship to fail
actually i don't need any assurances nor promises. i trust you desmond, everything that you say. and i love you. but promises can be broken, like what i've said.
perhaps that's why i don't need any of your promises.
although i had a very
honestly, im afraid of falling too deep into this relationship. i keep telling myself constantly not to be too bothered about everything and what he does. i'm just trying to prevent myself from being too involved in a relationship. perhaps it's my way of protecting myself from any more emotional damage, so that i can wave the white flag effortlessly any time and walk away from the whole relationship should it turn ugly. but it's wrong isn't it? we should always love like we've never been hurt before. *sigh x 2* i'll try.
des: i know that ur past relships have really dented ur faith in this one.. I know im not perfect.. but i wont want to hurt u neither do i want this rlship to fail
actually i don't need any assurances nor promises. i trust you desmond, everything that you say. and i love you. but promises can be broken, like what i've said.
perhaps that's why i don't need any of your promises.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
for the past month, i had been living in a candy shop with lots of candies of assorted flavours and colours. i was spoilt for choice. but i didn't want to continue in such uncertainties cos it's tiring psychologically. being me, i knew i would eventually pick one who's sweet and nice. and i have done so.
there's a bit of confusion in me though. is everything too fast? should we have waited till a few months later? will his love for me die off like the rest? did he love me for the wrong reason as well like the rest? although he told me he's not one who expresses his love often, he has already told me quite a few times within 2 days. lol. i hope we'll last although we both started on a note of uncertainty about our future. but then, whoever said that if couples started on a certain note, they'll definitely last?? heh.
i have been doing relief teaching for 3 days (including today). yay! although the kids still drive me nuts with their incessant ever-increasing noise level, the pay is enough to compensate me for that little irritation. so im okay with it. hope that more relief teaching assignments will come my way before the holidays for the kids start. =p
there's a bit of confusion in me though. is everything too fast? should we have waited till a few months later? will his love for me die off like the rest? did he love me for the wrong reason as well like the rest? although he told me he's not one who expresses his love often, he has already told me quite a few times within 2 days. lol. i hope we'll last although we both started on a note of uncertainty about our future. but then, whoever said that if couples started on a certain note, they'll definitely last?? heh.
i have been doing relief teaching for 3 days (including today). yay! although the kids still drive me nuts with their incessant ever-increasing noise level, the pay is enough to compensate me for that little irritation. so im okay with it. hope that more relief teaching assignments will come my way before the holidays for the kids start. =p
me: yeah.
me: (sensing his disappointment, trying hard to control myself from laughing) why not? since he's a nice guy and is very nice to me, i'll give it a shot lor.
********
i can still remember what i told you before. i told you not to regret when im really gone one day. you didn't understand back then. perhaps, you'll understand now. you thought i couldn't live without you.
but you are so wrong. cos i can live without you. better.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
we are 1 day old. =)
******** while we were staring at sentosa from vivocity yesterday, he held my hand. i held my breath. gosh. i waited but he didn't seem to be asking me that question. he seemed to be contented enough holding my hand. heh.
[2059h] - So Mr Desmond, do you have any questions to ask me?
[2100h] - Will you be my girlfriend, Sabrina?
but i sort of hesitated when he asked me that question. i told him all my concerns about him, or rather us, when he comes into uni next year. he said he has decided carefully. so after an internal struggle in me for about 20 minutes...
[2120h] - Yes Desmond, I'll be your girlfriend.
********
[2059h] - So Mr Desmond, do you have any questions to ask me?
[2100h] - Will you be my girlfriend, Sabrina?
but i sort of hesitated when he asked me that question. i told him all my concerns about him, or rather us, when he comes into uni next year. he said he has decided carefully. so after an internal struggle in me for about 20 minutes...
[2120h] - Yes Desmond, I'll be your girlfriend.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
des and i went to watch deathnote last nite. hee. the funny thing is we seem to be watching movies for the sake of watching a movie, cos the movie doesn't seem to be as interesting as me, at least to him. lol.
des is a really sweet and nice guy. i like him. but there's alot of reservations on my part too, just like his hesitations about me maybe. cos after all, everyone changes when they come into uni. i've experienced that before personally. i don't want to go through another heartbreak again, that's if eventually we get attached. that is a big question mark too.
he gives a brand new feel to the love that died in me. he makes me catch my breath when he says my name or when he does that. he's perfect. he makes me feel perfect.
my heart skipped a beat when you did that.
********
on the other hand, yanbin msged me to apologize at 3.59am this morning. in exact words:
Hey sab. I think i owe you an apology. For treating you so badly. Had to say somethings i didn't mean to. Much as i cherish my freedom now. I still miss e good time we had together. I m just one who don't want to make compromise. But ya. Glad to know you are much happier now den you were with me :)
i never demanded an apology from him after we broke up and went our separate ways. i knew one day he would do so himself. i never once scolded him names in front of common friends. i didn't want to tarnish his image. cos after all, apparently im the only one he treats badly. and so, no one else would understand and its no use explaining.
my reply: To me, what's past is past. I've left everything behind me. I've moved on. So, it doesnt matter anymore.
des is a really sweet and nice guy. i like him. but there's alot of reservations on my part too, just like his hesitations about me maybe. cos after all, everyone changes when they come into uni. i've experienced that before personally. i don't want to go through another heartbreak again, that's if eventually we get attached. that is a big question mark too.
he gives a brand new feel to the love that died in me. he makes me catch my breath when he says my name or when he does that. he's perfect. he makes me feel perfect.
my heart skipped a beat when you did that.
on the other hand, yanbin msged me to apologize at 3.59am this morning. in exact words:
Hey sab. I think i owe you an apology. For treating you so badly. Had to say somethings i didn't mean to. Much as i cherish my freedom now. I still miss e good time we had together. I m just one who don't want to make compromise. But ya. Glad to know you are much happier now den you were with me :)
i never demanded an apology from him after we broke up and went our separate ways. i knew one day he would do so himself. i never once scolded him names in front of common friends. i didn't want to tarnish his image. cos after all, apparently im the only one he treats badly. and so, no one else would understand and its no use explaining.
my reply: To me, what's past is past. I've left everything behind me. I've moved on. So, it doesnt matter anymore.
Sunday, November 05, 2006
i wish i could give des the kind of assurance he needs. if i really heed his advice and stop drinking so often, would he like me more? or does he prefer the bad girl that i am now? after all, to me, bad is alluring. heh.
actually it's kinda amusing why he is the one asking me for assurances and not vice versa. but i find myself falling in love with him gradually everyday. he brings the sunshine into my days with his morning calls and sweet msgs and warms my nights with his goodnight calls. i like the way he pronounces my name. there's a gentleness in it i've never felt before.
anyway, he sang me 2 songs before he went for his class chalet yesterday. 'this i promise you' by n'sync and 'this i swear' by nick lachey. i was really touched to tears when i heard him sing over the phone.
'but i want you to know that i really do like you.. and i think you are a very special gal.. yup.. just want to let you know..'
i cried, for all the foolish mistakes i've made.
i repent, cos you are the angel i can't defy.
actually it's kinda amusing why he is the one asking me for assurances and not vice versa. but i find myself falling in love with him gradually everyday. he brings the sunshine into my days with his morning calls and sweet msgs and warms my nights with his goodnight calls. i like the way he pronounces my name. there's a gentleness in it i've never felt before.
anyway, he sang me 2 songs before he went for his class chalet yesterday. 'this i promise you' by n'sync and 'this i swear' by nick lachey. i was really touched to tears when i heard him sing over the phone.
'but i want you to know that i really do like you.. and i think you are a very special gal.. yup.. just want to let you know..'
i cried, for all the foolish mistakes i've made.
i repent, cos you are the angel i can't defy.
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
we chatted for 2 hour plus on the phone till about 3.30am this morning. heh. there were silence sometimes, but even the sound of silence from the other end of the phone was alluring yet soothing. (unlike someone who used to say: "you got anything to say or not? nothing to say then hang up lah, don't keep holding onto the phone!" kns.)
actually, i guess we both know each other's intentions. from the serious 'i miss you's to the playful 'don't think of me yah?'s. perhaps we just want to take things slowly. and i appreciate that he's taking things a step at a time.
back to the phonecall, i sang a short verse from 'once upon a december' while he asked me what i want to hear him sing. hee. i've always wanted a guy to sing for me 'this i promise you' and mean every single word in the lyrics. he was like 'i can't sing like justin. ha.' i never wanted justin timberlake to sing that for me. take a chance to recognize that this could be yours. no guy has yet sung the full song to me seriously. will he sing it for me? i wonder.
on the other hand, yanbin msged me to ask if i had dinner last night. i couldn't be bothered to reply, honestly. and then he called me up and asked me if i was in my room and that he wanted to borrow the use of my printer. whatever.
im no longer answerable to you anymore from the moment you denied me yours.
actually, i guess we both know each other's intentions. from the serious 'i miss you's to the playful 'don't think of me yah?'s. perhaps we just want to take things slowly. and i appreciate that he's taking things a step at a time.
back to the phonecall, i sang a short verse from 'once upon a december' while he asked me what i want to hear him sing. hee. i've always wanted a guy to sing for me 'this i promise you' and mean every single word in the lyrics. he was like 'i can't sing like justin. ha.' i never wanted justin timberlake to sing that for me. take a chance to recognize that this could be yours. no guy has yet sung the full song to me seriously. will he sing it for me? i wonder.
on the other hand, yanbin msged me to ask if i had dinner last night. i couldn't be bothered to reply, honestly. and then he called me up and asked me if i was in my room and that he wanted to borrow the use of my printer. whatever.
im no longer answerable to you anymore from the moment you denied me yours.