des and i went to watch deathnote last nite. hee. the funny thing is we seem to be watching movies for the sake of watching a movie, cos the movie doesn't seem to be as interesting as me, at least to him. lol.
des is a really sweet and nice guy. i like him. but there's alot of reservations on my part too, just like his hesitations about me maybe. cos after all, everyone changes when they come into uni. i've experienced that before personally. i don't want to go through another heartbreak again, that's if eventually we get attached. that is a big question mark too.
he gives a brand new feel to the love that died in me. he makes me catch my breath when he says my name or when he does that. he's perfect. he makes me feel perfect.
my heart skipped a beat when you did that.
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on the other hand, yanbin msged me to apologize at 3.59am this morning. in exact words:
Hey sab. I think i owe you an apology. For treating you so badly. Had to say somethings i didn't mean to. Much as i cherish my freedom now. I still miss e good time we had together. I m just one who don't want to make compromise. But ya. Glad to know you are much happier now den you were with me :)
i never demanded an apology from him after we broke up and went our separate ways. i knew one day he would do so himself. i never once scolded him names in front of common friends. i didn't want to tarnish his image. cos after all, apparently im the only one he treats badly. and so, no one else would understand and its no use explaining.
my reply: To me, what's past is past. I've left everything behind me. I've moved on. So, it doesnt matter anymore.