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Monday, May 28, 2007
stayed up till around 1 plus watching tv last night. not that it was a really interesting show, but i just couldn't sleep. i cried so hard till i was too tired and finally fell asleep. im just too heartbroken and disappointed in everything.
love, perhaps, is really superficial. perhaps it can never transcend beyond distances. i was too naive all along. im totally disillusioned once more.
i know im strong. i've survived and i will still survive. i guess i must be the most resilient creature on earth, the one who will never give up till the last minute. i have more self worth than anyone thinks i can have. cos words don't bring me down.
but the pain is indescribable. and its still hurting, badly.
love, perhaps, is really superficial. perhaps it can never transcend beyond distances. i was too naive all along. im totally disillusioned once more.
i know im strong. i've survived and i will still survive. i guess i must be the most resilient creature on earth, the one who will never give up till the last minute. i have more self worth than anyone thinks i can have. cos words don't bring me down.
but the pain is indescribable. and its still hurting, badly.
Friday, May 18, 2007
just a few months back, the word forever seems far beyond reach. with all the squabbles that we had. but tonight, it was mentioned with a certain amount of comforting assurance. for once, it seemed like just a stone's throw away. :)
did i mention that i gotta wake up at a freaking unearthly 5am plus for my morning shift? im so seriously deprived of sleep. ha. can't wait for my next off day. but im already considered lucky compared to one of my colleagues who's working 27 days this month. madness.
gonna sleep soon. work is seriously draining my energy out. :p but well, i love my job nonetheless. *grins*
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work has been hectic. and its really stressful to work under constant threats of getting laid off next month (cos the event will be over then) and under the watchful eyes of a certain overly-concerned retail sales manager. LOL. i just wanna earn enough money to survive and get a new phone for myself, since i just lost mine. :(did i mention that i gotta wake up at a freaking unearthly 5am plus for my morning shift? im so seriously deprived of sleep. ha. can't wait for my next off day. but im already considered lucky compared to one of my colleagues who's working 27 days this month. madness.
gonna sleep soon. work is seriously draining my energy out. :p but well, i love my job nonetheless. *grins*
Thursday, May 10, 2007
shucks. im feeling so freaking poor. :( i can forsee another round of dark days in my life. heard my job hands out pays and claims really slowly. im gonna starve to death soon. oh well, and im not even spending my money on shopping anymore.
i can barely survive.
on a more exciting note, i'll be starting work today! yay. after days of waiting for the bloody pass to be ready, i can finally start work today. im totally looking forward to it. :)
went for glee's 21st belated burfdae party last nite. it's really nice meeting up with friends who are always on my mind, but never have the luxury of time to meet up with them. a pity that suannie couldn't make it. :p and friends like glee, qiqi and suannie are special to me. cos we stuck by each other despite all the external pressures and stress we face in planning the programs, we cried together, we forgave each other for our frustrations at how things are not going the way we want them to be, we gave each other our utmost support throughout the whole of scamp in june. all those moments are deeply etched in my heart. really hope we can meet up again soon. :p
about love:
i guess in a relationship, it's not about seeking the perfect bf/gf, cos nobody is perfect. its about acceptance and love: accepting each other for what they are and loving them for who they are. and i guess compromise is an important factor in all relationships. its about giving and receiving, and finding a balance between being the passive doormat and the overbearing dominatrix. :p
i can barely survive.
on a more exciting note, i'll be starting work today! yay. after days of waiting for the bloody pass to be ready, i can finally start work today. im totally looking forward to it. :)
went for glee's 21st belated burfdae party last nite. it's really nice meeting up with friends who are always on my mind, but never have the luxury of time to meet up with them. a pity that suannie couldn't make it. :p and friends like glee, qiqi and suannie are special to me. cos we stuck by each other despite all the external pressures and stress we face in planning the programs, we cried together, we forgave each other for our frustrations at how things are not going the way we want them to be, we gave each other our utmost support throughout the whole of scamp in june. all those moments are deeply etched in my heart. really hope we can meet up again soon. :p
about love:
i guess in a relationship, it's not about seeking the perfect bf/gf, cos nobody is perfect. its about acceptance and love: accepting each other for what they are and loving them for who they are. and i guess compromise is an important factor in all relationships. its about giving and receiving, and finding a balance between being the passive doormat and the overbearing dominatrix. :p
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
went tanning with xping @ sentosa yday! :)) we bought Ruffles and a bottle of bacardi freeze from 7-11 (the bacardi freeze was xping's idea.) and when we were paying for it at the cashier, the cashier asked for my ic. LOL. do i look so young? ha.
xping & me on the tram to siloso beach. :p
but well, we only managed to get 1 hour plus of sun cos the sun was slacking. heh. so by the end of the day, both of us left the beach with a slight tan only.
xping & me on the tram to siloso beach. :p
the triumph of getting the bacardi freeze opened.
i love the clouds. :)
Monday, May 07, 2007
today's a happy day. reached terminal 2 super early today. my training was supposed to start at 2.30pm but i reached around 1.30pm. so in the end, i bought my favourite ice blended mocha from coffee bean and waited there. while waiting, i suddenly saw glee! hee. and the first thought that came to my mind was: im sure glee is also going for the same training! :))
work's gonna be fun cos glee's gonna be working in the same terminal as me. yay! so i'll have company. :p anyway, we were so excited upon seeing each other that we just stood in the middle of nowhere and started chatting away excitedly. LOL. oh yah, did i forget to mention that the training includes free tasting of 4 different drinks!
surviving the 4 drinks, i went to meet xping in town in the evening after her job interview and we went S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!!! wheeee!!! the word that every girls love the most, other than their bfs. :)) and we were like crazy girls going in and out of changing rooms and trying out clothes after clothes. i didn't buy anything, cos im really really broke. :(( but im so in love with two dresses that i tried on, one from m)phosis and the other from Zara. and i wanna wear one of them for glee's upcoming belated burfdae party to suit her theme. :p
me & xping @ Zara's changing room
another thing that made my day was darling's msg. haven't been talking to him on msn for 2 days cos he couldn't find wifi (and i've guessed it). and he said he's missing me. *giggles* i really can't wait for friday to come. i miss him soo much, but im more able to handle my emotions now. probably cos he's coming back real soon. :p and there's all my gfs who are keeping me occupied. :))
going sentosa with xping tml! wheeee!
work's gonna be fun cos glee's gonna be working in the same terminal as me. yay! so i'll have company. :p anyway, we were so excited upon seeing each other that we just stood in the middle of nowhere and started chatting away excitedly. LOL. oh yah, did i forget to mention that the training includes free tasting of 4 different drinks!
surviving the 4 drinks, i went to meet xping in town in the evening after her job interview and we went S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!!! wheeee!!! the word that every girls love the most, other than their bfs. :)) and we were like crazy girls going in and out of changing rooms and trying out clothes after clothes. i didn't buy anything, cos im really really broke. :(( but im so in love with two dresses that i tried on, one from m)phosis and the other from Zara. and i wanna wear one of them for glee's upcoming belated burfdae party to suit her theme. :p
me & xping @ Zara's changing room
another thing that made my day was darling's msg. haven't been talking to him on msn for 2 days cos he couldn't find wifi (and i've guessed it). and he said he's missing me. *giggles* i really can't wait for friday to come. i miss him soo much, but im more able to handle my emotions now. probably cos he's coming back real soon. :p and there's all my gfs who are keeping me occupied. :))
going sentosa with xping tml! wheeee!
Sunday, May 06, 2007
and so, i met my yaya sisters at mind cafe on fri night after shopping and dinner with irene and wanyie. :)) board games on a friday late night. one word to describe: FUN!
mango, peach & raspberry floats! yummy yummy!
how can we miss out the food?? hee.
left with 2 cards only. *dejected look*
the super expressive chris! lol.
the no eye-contact rule. :p
i've got faster hands than the cam! whee!
mango, peach & raspberry floats! yummy yummy!
how can we miss out the food?? hee.
left with 2 cards only. *dejected look*
sin yee & xping.. :p
the super expressive chris! lol.
some 'action' card i chose. ouch. *neck ache*
the no eye-contact rule. :p
see-you-see-me-not.
the yaya sisterhood!! :) (too bad jean couldn't make it.)
had a fantastic time there playing board and card games! by the time we knew it, it was 3am. lol. after that, xping stayed over at my place. whee! i love stay overs!! :)) we chatted till around 5 plus, when i finally asked xping: should we sleep? before concussing. heh.
Saturday, May 05, 2007
anyway, had a really fun post-exams celebration yesterday! :) met irene for shopping at bugis st and spent a really long time shopping there till our feet were hurting from our high heels. such is the woes of females... for vanity. :p but we still love our heels all the same. lol.
we were supposed to go sing kbox at paradiz in the afternoon, but only to realise upon reaching there that they have changed the paradiz branch's operating hours. :( and so in the end, we decided to go to the xin wang restaurant at cineleisure to rest our much-abused feet... and get some nice air-con from the hot weather, while waiting for our beloved 'rejector' to meet us. :p
after wanyie came along, we ordered 3 black pepper chicken with spag. mmm it was delicious! and wanyie treated us to the fantabulous mango snow ice which was freaking HUGE!! its not called one of the 'Four Heavenly Kings' for nothing. :p irene went 'WOAH!', wanyie jerked, while i went 'OMG!' when the mango snow ice was served. LOL. and anyway, thankew babe for the treat!! :)) so here are the pics...
we both wore purple dresses! :p
the freaking HUGE mango snow ice!
wanyie's and irene's exaggerated expressions! LOL.
its dig-in time!! :p
im really looking forward to celebrating wanyie's burfdae soon! :)) anyway, that was part 1 only... part 2 coming up! :p
we were supposed to go sing kbox at paradiz in the afternoon, but only to realise upon reaching there that they have changed the paradiz branch's operating hours. :( and so in the end, we decided to go to the xin wang restaurant at cineleisure to rest our much-abused feet... and get some nice air-con from the hot weather, while waiting for our beloved 'rejector' to meet us. :p
after wanyie came along, we ordered 3 black pepper chicken with spag. mmm it was delicious! and wanyie treated us to the fantabulous mango snow ice which was freaking HUGE!! its not called one of the 'Four Heavenly Kings' for nothing. :p irene went 'WOAH!', wanyie jerked, while i went 'OMG!' when the mango snow ice was served. LOL. and anyway, thankew babe for the treat!! :)) so here are the pics...
we both wore purple dresses! :p
the freaking HUGE mango snow ice!
wanyie's and irene's exaggerated expressions! LOL.
its dig-in time!! :p
im really looking forward to celebrating wanyie's burfdae soon! :)) anyway, that was part 1 only... part 2 coming up! :p
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
yay!! darling came on msn at around 10 plus pm (over there its 10 plus am). i was chatting halfway with xping...
*sabbie* says: omg
*sabbie* says: i cannot believe my eyes
*sabbie* says: my bf came online
xping* / 3 down! says: WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!
xping* / 3 down! says: go talk to him quick!!!!
*sabbie* says: yeah i am
*sabbie* says: omg omg
haha. xping's response is so hilarious. :p
but yah, i was very touched that he came online for a while just to talk to me. i was extremely sad this morning, when i woke up and saw his e-mail but he wasn't online. BUT i finally realise it was really sweet of him to still specially drop by at the cafe (where there's wireless) to send me an e-mail, cos his friends were hurrying him as they wanted to go back.
suddenly i feel so touched by just this little gesture of his. at that moment after he explained, i almost felt like... yes, crying again. its just so ME. lol.
and xping told me she'll accompany me on the 8th. im really touched as well. :) thanks babe, im totally beyond words. this sem i really feel very fortunate cos i realise i have lotsa good friends around me, who are with me through my ups and downs and always there to hear my whinings. OOPS. :p thanks dudes and dudettes!! you know who you are. :))
i guess this sem is the best semester i ever have in NUS, despite being the busiest and most hectic sem. to walk away with irreplaceable friendships, i think that's the best thing that can ever happen in one's life..
*sabbie* says: omg
*sabbie* says: i cannot believe my eyes
*sabbie* says: my bf came online
xping* / 3 down! says: WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!
xping* / 3 down! says: go talk to him quick!!!!
*sabbie* says: yeah i am
*sabbie* says: omg omg
haha. xping's response is so hilarious. :p
but yah, i was very touched that he came online for a while just to talk to me. i was extremely sad this morning, when i woke up and saw his e-mail but he wasn't online. BUT i finally realise it was really sweet of him to still specially drop by at the cafe (where there's wireless) to send me an e-mail, cos his friends were hurrying him as they wanted to go back.
suddenly i feel so touched by just this little gesture of his. at that moment after he explained, i almost felt like... yes, crying again. its just so ME. lol.
and xping told me she'll accompany me on the 8th. im really touched as well. :) thanks babe, im totally beyond words. this sem i really feel very fortunate cos i realise i have lotsa good friends around me, who are with me through my ups and downs and always there to hear my whinings. OOPS. :p thanks dudes and dudettes!! you know who you are. :))
i guess this sem is the best semester i ever have in NUS, despite being the busiest and most hectic sem. to walk away with irreplaceable friendships, i think that's the best thing that can ever happen in one's life..
the playlist randomly played the song 'this i swear' today. when i heard it, tears started flowing down again. im missing you still, but your love keeps me going.
last night, irene asked me if i ever feel that you are the one for me. and i said yes, without much hesitation. i know if the same question is posed to u, u probably would just laugh it off, never giving a definite answer. i know im not perfect, maybe that's why. i wish someday you would look at me in the eye and tell me 'you are the only one for me, darling'. and mean every single word of it.
1 week to our 6th month. 9 days to your return. im waiting.
last night, irene asked me if i ever feel that you are the one for me. and i said yes, without much hesitation. i know if the same question is posed to u, u probably would just laugh it off, never giving a definite answer. i know im not perfect, maybe that's why. i wish someday you would look at me in the eye and tell me 'you are the only one for me, darling'. and mean every single word of it.
1 week to our 6th month. 9 days to your return. im waiting.