yesterday was a really lousy 1st day at work, ever in my life. *sigh* i've always had good comments about me wherever i work, i.e. being enthusiastic, bright smile, friendly and confident, having the initiative blah blah. i got scolded/ nagged at, whichever sounds nicer, for 5-6 times at work yesterday. i don't wanna talk about it already. although the extra 6 bucks for my hard work paid off at the end of the day, i'm still pretty dejected.
although i had a very wrong day, darling managed to make my day perfect. he borrowed his dad's car and fetched me up after work. *smiles*
honestly, im afraid of falling too deep into this relationship. i keep telling myself constantly not to be too bothered about everything and what he does. i'm just trying to prevent myself from being too involved in a relationship. perhaps it's my way of protecting myself from any more emotional damage, so that i can wave the white flag effortlessly any time and walk away from the whole relationship should it turn ugly. but it's wrong isn't it? we should always love like we've never been hurt before. *sigh x 2* i'll try.
des: i know that ur past relships have really dented ur faith in this one.. I know im not perfect.. but i wont want to hurt u neither do i want this rlship to fail
actually i don't need any assurances nor promises. i trust you desmond, everything that you say. and i love you. but promises can be broken, like what i've said.
perhaps that's why i don't need any of your promises.