i wish i could give des the kind of assurance he needs. if i really heed his advice and stop drinking so often, would he like me more? or does he prefer the bad girl that i am now? after all, to me, bad is alluring. heh.
actually it's kinda amusing why he is the one asking me for assurances and not vice versa. but i find myself falling in love with him gradually everyday. he brings the sunshine into my days with his morning calls and sweet msgs and warms my nights with his goodnight calls. i like the way he pronounces my name. there's a gentleness in it i've never felt before.
anyway, he sang me 2 songs before he went for his class chalet yesterday. 'this i promise you' by n'sync and 'this i swear' by nick lachey. i was really touched to tears when i heard him sing over the phone.

'but i want you to know that i really do like you.. and i think you are a very special gal.. yup.. just want to let you know..'

i cried, for all the foolish mistakes i've made.
i repent, cos you are the angel i can't defy.