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Friday, October 12, 2007
i'm like having totally negative feelings now. *sighs* i start wondering about my existence in cheerleading. though i've been attending practices faithfully but something just doesn't seem really right. attending practices religiously doesn't equal to alot of stuffs. i dunno what gibberish im talking about now. i've been suffering a lot of bruises from trainings, such that i can't wear my pretty tops or dresses. my muscles are building up and im really afraid i'll look even bulkier than i am now. *sighs x 2* and so, i look at my body covered with hideous bruises and ugly muscles and start questioning myself: is it really worth it? does anyone care? i dun even feel beautiful now, with all the extra muscles piling on me from all the training. i rather be back to the flabby me. :( arghh. |